Days we had in Hijiville

Paradox Is Getting Outrageous

Making a conclusion of my week was absolutely a terrible headache indeed, and my brain is literally a mess right now. Seriously, I'm too busy, too tired and too paranoid to remember what I have and haven't done. Life in this week was totally disorganised just because I was trying too hard to be organised, and I was a bit pissed by myself.

Too many things happened and I just can't take them all at once. I know I've fulfilled 95% of my plan that I posted previously, but the 5% leftover fill my stomach up 99% of anxiety about something very important that have not yet been done, feels like bad consequences are coming very soon. I figured out 1% is from me totally forgot a very significant person's birthday which is supposed to be celebrated a month ago; 1% is me forget to manage a meet up with Lezel for her birthday; 1% is from my undone Visa. The rest of the 2% is also known as some very important unknown issues...

And yes, I'm super paranoid right now, which is because I got stalked few days ago by a pervert. He stalked me to my building and managed to get inside the main building door while the door was automatically closing behind me. I noticed he is not a familiar face, and he realised I started to suspect too. Explained to me that he was living with his friends on the top floor was relieved me a bit but did not lose my caution at all. When I walked up to second floor, he began to go crazy and verbally harrassed me! I assertively asked to be alone, but he wasn't listening. So I gave him a second warning that I'll phone my flatmate out and confront with him, while I was taking my phone out of my pocket steadily. Then he finally back off, but still verbally threw out some really dirty sentences before he leave, which was fucking irritating.

I couldn't sleep and desperately need to talk to someone, but I didn't want to wake Kath up since she was exhausted and need to work the other morning. So I went up to internet and asking some friends online to stay with me... Thanks Wance and Ben for calming me down. I wasn't scared of that pervert at all, coz he looks like a loser that I'm definitely capable to beat his ass up, still I'm very paranoid and really noise sensitive. I know that I was very lucky that he didn't have a knife or gun, otherwise I'd be in dipshit.

Last nite I stayed in Hanna and Lena's place after come together festival at Luna Park, in order to be in the airport with aunty Kass on time to pick up my family. I wanna thank them here, for coming to the festival with me, being with me and letting me stay with them! anyway, it's good to see my parent and Uncle Bill again, but somehow my anxiety has silently invaded my guts. I know the reason why, but I just couldn't textually explain it here, perhaps I never put the effort to try.


So...my parent is living with me and Kath now, I'm glad that Kath loves my family so much. She said she loves how crazy and fun my family could be, and she keep saying my dad is super funny for some reasons. We did Yum Cha in the morning before visiting Kass's mom and her dad's grave, I think this is a chinese tradition (esp my family) to eat and reconnect with the distanced family as the first priority, regardless the uncomfortable overnight flight trip. We then headed to Chelsea for steak, they all love it and started to drink alcohol. But... they back home and sleep more at 8pm, while me and Kath went to see White Noise. It was a stupid movie with a very interesting idea, we think it would be amazing if they made a documentary for E.V.P. [3 out of 5]

P.S. Happy birthday to Lena and Lezel!!!
P.P.S. Shit, I guess my mom saw my tongue...

[[audio: Tegan & Sara - Speak Slow]]

My Perfect Triple Somersault

Oh Dear, I've been very busy this week, and there's more coming up! Grrrr... Generally, I've been burning all my data out of my computer, coz I'm selling it to Pauly. God, I used at least 30 blank CD (about 700mb each) to clean up my HDD, aww... I'm gonna miss my computer! *sob*

Yesterday I did a medical check and a chest X-ray for my Visa; Working in FBi today, suppose to meet Hanna's parent but I cancelled it coz I've too much to do...; Going to meet up Paul tomorrow and have a business lunch with him, then head to Lena's birthday party in the Roxberry; Friday is Lezel's birthday, but I only have time in the morning and have breakfast with her, after that will be working on my last day in FBi before my 2 weeks break with my parent, and will go crazy in Dub Conspiracy at Luna Park; Saturday will keep my head up on the Luna park stage for Come Together festival; Sunday 6:00am is the time my parent and my uncle land on the Oz land!!

It's 10:20pm and I'm still in FBi working my arse off, there're too many stuff to deal with. (Sophie I told you I won't be able to leave at 6:30pm) But I actually feel quite comfortable here, coz it's fun people around me! Right now I'm sitting at Computer "Yoko Oh-No"; Next to me is Shantan at Pro-Tool Mac editing his interview (he just edited out all of his voice, coz he said he sounds disgusting, remember my post about air-check? I'm not the only one hate my own voice! ho ho ho~~); Opposite to me is Phillip the whack with his Dell working on some new project before heading to another radio station... God, we have more familiar faces jumping in and hopping out, it's very different from daytime and, definitely, allnighter time! KOOL~

I've already booked the ticket and hotel room to Gold Coast, oh my~ this is very exciting! It's my first time flying somewhere inside Australia and seriously travelling. *cough*shitup!*cough* And I'm going to book to Ayers Rock (Uluru), Kath might come with us too, this is going to be great! *grins*

OK, I better go now.

P.S. My dad wanna go fishing... god he is so difficult! anyone know any good place/ tour for fishing? Please let me know~!!!

[[audio: Scissor Sisters - Filthy Gorgeous]]

Delayed Life And Sense

I realised my life compare with normal people is 3-5 hours delayed, a normal person's active time is 9am-11pm, and mine is 12pm-4am. I guess this is the side-effect of being an Allnighter, and I just hope that I could back to normal before my parent arrive...

You may wonder why my parent is coming... Nope, I am not having a wedding. They are coming for 2 weeks to attend my graduation ceremony and travel a bit with me. I am very happy and looking forward to seeing them, but I still have this weird feelings in my gut and it makes me not really as excited as I'm supposed to be.

Life is just changing now. Perhaps I should celebrate that it is moving.

So if you are interested to see me with the graduated gown, I'd love to see you on 27th April, around 11:30am at Macquarie University, North Ryde. Give me a call if you are coming! :) Otherwise, I'll have a BBQ graduation party in my place at night, expecting to see you there!

Address again is: 14/641 Pacific Highway, Chatswood.
(Right next to the Midas)

After that, I'll probably take them to Goldcoast and Uluru (My dad's wishlist). It's gonna be great. >w<

By the way, I want to say Happy Birthday to Anja, I feel super guilty that I didn't attend her birthday party. It's just being a very busy week to me, and there's more coming the next few weeks... grrrr! Sorry baby doll, I promise will do something very special with you to make it up.

A message to Sonic: You are the best! It's been 2 days and I have heaps people come up and said they love our "chemical romance" make-up! good job~!!

P.S. Door Bitch is a fun job, coz I love bitching. *grins*

[[audio: My Chemical Romance - Helena]]

Never Rest In Peace

I never love talking politics in my blog, but it's all the chinese talking about right now and they even trying to preach me to stop consuming Japanese products. This is what's happening in my country and it is getting really serious, which I'm very concerned that it is important to state clear what people to view about this event.

What's going on is a hugh protest is being demonstrated again Japan globally by Chinese, and here is the reason why:

" The spark for the latest row was Tokyo's approval of a new history textbook that whitewashes Japan's wartime atrocities, including the massacre of tens - possibly hundreds - of thousands of civilians in Nanjing in 1937; the forced recruitment of 'comfort women' who were made to work as sex slaves in Japanese army brothels; and the infamous Unit 731's deadly tests of biological weapons on entire Chinese villages. The offending books, which are published by a right-wing nationalist group, are used in fewer than 1 per cent of Japan's schools because the vast majority of teachers agree that they distort history. But their very existence is seen by the country's neighbours as proof that Japan's leaders refuse to face up to the past." (The Guardian)

I don't know what is the problem of the Japanese Prime Minister Junichiro Koizumi, deceiving himself and all the Japanese citizens while the history of Nanjing is universally acknowledged. This man is the stupidest liar I have ever seen in my whole life, even a 3 years old boy knows that when mommy discovered his bed is wet, it's no use to deny it but face it and be sorry about it. This face-saving attitude really pisses me off, and he is not the only one who have this problem, but many asian people.

But I'm more pissed by the Chinese nationalists, in some community posts, they cursed the new generation of Hong Kong as bastards of mixture like a dog of Japan, just because they like Japanese products, culture, music and so on. I'm proud to be a Chinese as that is who I am, but never like the fucking nationalism.

If I am a bastard of mixture, those nationalists are the motherfuckers of racism, and they can kiss my hybrid arse. Let me put it this way, I'm a bastard who don't believe in "home-", no home, no hometown, no home country. I don't belong to China, Britain, Australia, nor Hong Kong. I belong to the earth and fullstop. The new generation have right to choose what culture they love, and it has nothing to do with fucking nationality or the manipulation of history.

I support the demonstration, but why the purpose of it is coming against the innocent Japanese (and Chinese) citizen and not the lame liar? Moreover, all the protests in Hong Kong are always peaceful and no violence at all, whereas China is labelled as "the scary country", because they become anti-Japanese monster raging the city...

"On Hushanguan road, a mob threw a bicycle through the windows of a Japanese okonomiyaki restaurant. In a nearby shopping district, protesters broke windows at about 10 Japanese-style noodle shops and bars - many of them Chinese-owned. Several Japanese-made cars were pelted with bottles and gravel, regardless of the nationality of the drivers." (The Guardian)

People, where is the intellectuality? I believe only the bastards of mixture have it.

Reference: The Guardian - "Violence flares as the Chinese rage at Japan"

[[audio: The Used - All That I've Got]]

My Allnighter Playlist 13th April 2005

I had a very great show! Thanks Kath for staying all nite, also Hanna and Nic for being so supportive for being with me most of the time. The Red Bull that Kath gave me was very helpful, hence I was very energetic throughout the whole show.

And Guess What? I got soooooo many calls tonite! 7 requests from sane strangers are very rare in Allnighter, so that is a big reason why I was so excited all nite. See? A call request is a big boost to me, so wherever you are, people, call me up next time!!!

Tonite, I picked quite a lot of indie rocky rock stuff this time, still funky and even more people love it!! Here is the playlist:

2:03 I Predict A Riot [Kaiser Chiefs]
2:07 Venus Fly Trap [Eletrocute]
2:13 Yo Mama [Butterfingers]
2:16 Back Up [TZU]
2:22 TKO (Hot Chip mix) [Le Tigre]
2:29 An Honest Mistake [The Bravery]
2:32 Got No Money [The Red Sun Band]
2:34 Catch My Disease [Ben Lee]
2:39 The Record Company [Bluebottle Kiss]
2:43 Inhale Exhale [Kid Confucius]
2:49 Crooked (feat. Aeso Rock) [Evil Nine]
2:54 Outlander (feat. Urthboy) [Chasm]
3:00 Raised By Wolves [Midnight Juggernauts]
3:03 Appletree [Wolfmother]
3:09 Gunshot [Resin Dog]
3:15 One day [Keltec]
3:21 The Madness [Bluejuice]
3:27 Hound Of Love [The Futureheads]
3:30 I Love You Cause I Have To [Dogs Die In Hot Car]
3:33 I Hear Noises [Tegan & Sara]
3:38 Die In Your Eyes [Dappled Cities Fly]
3:43 I Was Born (a Unicorn) [The Unicorns]
3:46 Opium Of The People [The Mint Chicks]
3:50 Holy [Gelbison]
3:54 Sleepy Little Deadtoll Town [The Panda Band]
3:58 Message To God [Little Birdy]
4:02 Special Needs [Placebo]
4:07 Misery Is A Butterfly [Blonde Redhead]
4:12 Always Worth It [Sarah Blasko]
4:18 The Irish Keep Gate-Crashing [The Thrills]
4:21 Free Salute [Little Barrie]
4:28 Too Careful [End Of Fashion]
4:31 The End Of The World [The Cure]
4:35 E-Pro [Beck]
4:40 Let's Party [Spod]
4:43 Lovin' And Leaving [Intercooler]
4:50 Banquet [Bloc Party]
4:53 Club Shakers [Two Up]
4:58 Don't Get It Twisted [Motive]
5:03 Pigs In The Porn Trough [Bliss N' Eso]
5:10 I Like It [Soma Rasa]
5:15 Let The Music Talk [Katalyst]
5:20 Zindagi (Bobby Singh Remix) [The Bird]
5:24 Underwear Goes Inside The Pants [Lazy Boy]
5:31 The Old Man Can Talk [Bit By Bats]
5:35 I'm A Cuckoo [Belle And Sebastian]
5:40 Tribulations [LCD Soundsystem]
5:50 Morning Life [Feeder]
5:55 New Slang (Live with Iron and Wine) [The Shins]
5:57 Overdue [The Get Up Kids]

P.S. Thanks for the people who talked with me on ICQ, sorry the internet was crashed again in the middle of the day... But thanks to Michaela for fixing it, so I can put this list on right away.
P.P.S. Thanks for listening people, I am a HAPPY gal. *doing happy dance*

Dude, Gear Up Yourself!

I know I am weird, ten minutes ago I was still sleeping, now I am wide awake with crazy humors all in my head. Guess I watched too many comedies last night and I laughed myself up at 4:30 in the morning.

Yesterday, I went for a coffee with Sonic, and we started to talk about bad habits, here are some extracts:

--In the topic of "Define bad looking"--
S: Hm... Lazy men are terrible, I can tell you they are all bad looking.
F: Sounds a bit too general~ Why is that?
S: All men, sooner or later, will lose their hair, get a tummy, or even start to stink. So it's all about how you keep yourself looking your best, which I think, lazy men can never do, coz they are too fucking lazy to care.
F: OK, I see what you mean, laziness is a problem for many men. But ya know what's worse? some dude just think they've got fucking big balls and that's all that matters, they think they are too man for grooming. That shits me so much.
S: *laugh* Yeah, they just can't see that it's all about sanitization.
F: God yeah mann! they have no sense of hygiene at all. Ya know, some dudes pee worse than a dog, and they scratch their balls or butt crack on the street without feeling guilty. I can't tolerate these awful manners.
S: *laugh* true. It's bad, sometimes they smell it as well.
F: *laugh* Oh my god! Yes they do!!!!!

--In the topic of "how to make a ugly man look more attractive?"--
S: if they are hot, they are hot; if they are not, they are not.
F: I think somehow it's related to their confidence too.
S: Well, then put some nice underwear on and stop wearing the same one 7 days a week!
F: *laugh* do they really...? that's very gross!
S: *laugh* yup, truly dear.
F: Well, I think keeping a good hygiene is the most fundamental point for all the ugly men.
S: Yea, and they should do some basic grooming. Ya know, like keeping the nails short and clean, get a nice haircut, shave properly...
F: See? That shits me as well, especially those bald dudes, losing hair is not a big deal as long as they get a good haircut, but most of them tend to keep the rest of the hair long, it looks horrible!
S: I know!! it's just like Andy in Little Britain! *laugh*
F: *laugh* yeah! He is a good example. I think it's more like a mental thing, ya know, many guys have baldphobia, when they're losing hair, they just wanna keep the rest instead of cutting it in case it never grows again.
S: Nah... They are just lazy.
Both: *laugh* Lazy bastards...

In conclusion, hygiene, basic grooming and good manners are very significant to make a person look better. It's for people of all kinds of genders and sexualities, different ages and different sizes, it's universal. So stop being so fucking lazy and whining how sad your life is! Get your ass to the bathroom and take a shower and don't even think about peeing in the shower you gross pig! At this point, if you are still reading, I'm sure you either really like me or agree with me. To this extent, it proves that Sonic and I are good enough to be your lifestyle + fashion consultants, please give us a call for an appointment. *grins*

If you are curious, I had a very good time in Blue mountains on Saturday with Leo, Jonathan and Nicholas. Although Leo is swedish-british, he knows the blue mountains very well, since he grew up here. Therefore, he took us to many amazing spots with magnificent scenery, all pictures have been uploaded, check it outtttt!

Alright, guess I exhausted myself enough bitching here, it's delightful, but alas, it's time to go back to sleep, tomorrow is gonna be a big day... Bon nuit.

P.S. Leia is coming back on Tuesday morning!!!!!
P.P.S. I just didn't meet up with Hanna, that's fate... or maybe bad communication. :-p

[[audio: Kaiser Chiefs - I Predict A Riot]]

Wonka Goes Nuts

Tonight was a very great night in Sly Fox's U Show Us Yours, a little nightmare after the show since we lost Kath on the raining street, but thank god there's no drama or so. We have this very good DJ Dopamine from TCR Record playing tonight, it was an absolutely impressive breakbeats mix. Finally I also get the chance to see Joules Fine and Crooked Mouth to play their set there, I think they are marvellous.

I'm very happy to be there and talk with some hidden DJs there, they are from everwhere. But I think the most amazing conversation was with Crooked Mouth, who is one of the big men behind this event. Seeing him playing his set was really delightful, as the love of music is very vivid. When I talked to him, I can see his passon of DJing is flooded out of his body. It is a man who truly devoted to DJ Music and I fully respect that. *bow*

If anyone is interested, here is the guest line up for April, remember they are all FREE:
Apr14 - DJ Muse (Perth, Lucid Beats)
Apr21 - Watsi (Ireland, Hydroponic Collective)
Apr28 - Mark Murphy, The Impossibles & DJ of the month
*plus weekly residents: Joules Fine & Crooked Mouth
http://www.ushowusyours.com
-Sly Fox Hotel, 199 Enmore Rd.-

Crooked Mouth also told me that there's an excellent underground DJ gig happens on every Sunday at Club77 (77 William St, KingsX), I'm really looking forward to seeing that. *grins*

By the way, in case you forget, my Allnighter date is 13th Apr, I'll probably go from FBi fundraiser live in Gaelic, so hope will see you all there and please wish me luck. :)

*yawn* Time to sleep now... *Besitos*

P.S. God tells me to stay away from certain people, because we are like dynamic and fire. Once I touched them, they will explode and we will be gone.
P.P.S. Brotha ya betta watch ya mouth yo! I ain't Black! *stand kool*

[[audio: The Reindeer Section - You Are My Joy]]

Ephemeral Roses Did Not Die Next Day

Swear to God, it is really not what I usually do to see a movie twice, but I did it for La Mala Educacion (Bad Education) and I am not sorry! Actually it is a damn pleasure to watch it again, and I am literally considering to see it one more time.

Compare with the film Young Adam that I saw last Monday, it is completely uncomparable, La Mala Educacion is like way much better than this trying-too-hard-to-be-arty crap shit. Can't believe Kath told me she got in to the cinema to watch it twice, well... I don't blame her as a big Ewan McGregor fan, since his entire penis is shown in this film. But this filmmaker should really watch La Mala Educacion and take some notes there. Young Adam is still too young to be on the cinema. [2 out of 5]

Few days ago, me and Kath were watching The Incredibles and Kung Fu Hustle, both are excellent movies, we had good laugh. I proved one thing, that western people are generally capable to understand 70% of the jokes and 100% of the storyline of Kung Fu Hustle, and that's good enough to laugh their arses off. Kath even kept talking about different scenes of the film with me and asked to watch again. See? It's good shit~!

I've been spending lots of time with Kath this week, besides watching movie and Little Britain which we usually do. Queer As Folk has became one of her favorite fay's-good-tvshow-downloads, we watched 2-3 episodes per day. Learning Spanish is also a very important activity in this house, Me llamo Fay, Et tu? (My name is Fay, and you?) heh heh... how's that? Other things like playing fire sparkling, waving to the neighbour and bitching each other has became routines.

The most special thing that we have done this week, would be perming our hair. You have probably noticed my new display picture, that's how I look like with curly hair. Personally I think it doesn't really suit me, perhaps I'm not used to have curly hair, and it's a bit too feminine to me. First reaction when I was looking at the mirror was "Damn, I look like a very mature woman-woman! That is old-skool ya' know!" Jaime is right, I do like a boy. Don't worry, it is just a heat-up perm, my hair is back to straight again. *phew*

A little message to Olla:
Happy Birthday sexy boy! Or should I call you man? hee hee... I hope you like my present, if it is not good enough, remember you are just 25. *winks* Party hard and be stupid!! Te quiero amigo~ *besitos*

A little message to Levins:
Happy Birthday dude~ I hope you had a great birthday party and lovely Korean dinner! :) But hey, I'll see you on FBi's meeting on Monday, is that a bit too late to give you a birthday kiss + hug? *puppy eyes* xo

P.S. Did I mention I've been listening Spanish music as well? *grins*
P.P.S. I love watching movie with someone who'd like to see the whole credit with me, so far I only know one.

[[audio: Aterciopelados - El Estuche]]

Tu Eres Muy Bonita, Te Quiero.

I believe in paradox, it exposes the most honest and complicated side of human traits. I do enjoy living in different contradictory aspects, it sounds like a schizophrenia but that's not how it is. Being paradoxical is definitely conscious and very sane, because it is not a mental disease but a conscious intention.

I believe in insanity, it frees the most hidden personality of a human being, regardless any circumstances. Everyone is insane but they just act as a normal, but I would love to be the first person stand up and admit that I'm crazy. Madness is a very sane behaviour, because it is part of our emotion.

I bet many people wouldn't agree what I say, but it's depend how you view paradox and insanity. You see paradox and insanity as mental disorders, I see them as affective reactions.

[[audio: Sara Montiel - Quizas, Quizas, Quizas]]