Days we had in Hijiville

Interesting Present For Christmas

Merry Christmas you all good kids, Santa is gonna land you some pressies! He just gave me a niece, my first niece ever in my life! I'm very excited but a bit uncomfortable too as I will be called "aunt", aunty fay! *shiver*

It's been a while to write here, coz I've been really busy working. It's a good thing coz I feel more useful to do something constructive rather than sitting all day and do silly thinking. Problem haven't completely solved yet, but it seems giving me more and more light, so I'll be fine. I make so much money everyday and I'm happy that I'm good at that, coz I've never thought I'm a business type of person. However, my heart is still devoted to music. :)

Does anyone know anything about Yemen? I might go there in Feb.

I hope you all are doing all good and sound. Have a great celebration.

[[audio: Sufjan Steven - Sister Winter]]

Kill My Time

I've been in confusion and it sucks big time. But thank god I've got a new job, which I will be the sales leader of a glassware company from Germany, mainly wineglasses. I will be on going a part time probation for one month, then will be start it permenantly. It's gonna be a challenge to me, and will exhaust me too much to be a silly arse. So everyone, wish me luck. :)

[[audio: Bloc Party - The Prayer]]

For Your Entertainment

These few days were covered by job interviews, one thing I hate about getting a job is to give expected salary. I mean, you have to do a number wisely, but it's hard since you just dunno how much are you supposed to be paid. If you ask too high, you might just lost your opportunity; ask too low will make it like a rip off. Why don't they just give the god damn pay range, it can save a lot of god damn trouble!

[[audio: The Shins - Phantom Limb]]

A Gleam Of Hope

Here is another chance for myself, I need to be brave and veracious. I don't know if tragedy will repeat itself again or not, but I won't let it, because that is just important to me. I wanna thank so many of you who support me, listen to me, and help me with all you can. You guys make me grow to be a better person, I love you all.

Let's hope that we can get through it.

P.S. French people are brilliant.

[[audio: Subtle - A Tale Of Apes I]]

Storming Rain In A Great Day

Happy birthday mother, I love you. It's just that my heart is messed up as if today's weather. I can't function myself feeling right, I am confused and scared and anxious. I'm glad that I managed to look fine in your birthday, regardless the pain deep inside.

I think it's good to let the thunder strike the bubble dream, let the storm wake up the blind, let the rain wash off the dirt that cover the real picture that I should have known.

But now, I realised how silly could a person be when she doesn't know what she really want. I just remember a piece of advice for me: "You got to feel what you actually feeling, not how it should feel."


[[audio: Bat For Lashes - What's A Girl To Do?]]

A Down Time

When I have my unfortunate time, I think of something positive of myself to feel better. But what if this is not about luck? what if I knew it could happen some day, and it just did? since the beginning, I knew. I just let it start by hoping even 90% chance is not gonna work, I still hope that the 10% can show me some miracle. It's stupid, I'm just too naive to see things. But sometimes people just like to be a bit naive, as it's so painful to be too complicated. I guess I just have to take the pain, and be a complicated person.

Good bye simple me.

[[audio: Youth Group - On A String]]

Mercy Mercy ME!

So finally I have finished my contract with Finnair, and I am gonna have 6 months rest. I am actually pretty happy to stop, my body get unbelievable weak since I started. My skin is in bad condition, I was lack of sleeping way too much, I get sick almost once a week and they all take a lot of time to heal. After 6 months? We'll see.

I am taking the whole November off just to recover myself, sleep and sleep and more sleep... But a week and a half after I quit, the company that I worked for temporary in early May had called up, and they were asking me to work for them. I was like "WOW! I have never found a job without giving much effort like this, it's amazing!" So we have arranged to meet up and talk about it, I think we are having a deal for me to work as a part-time first, which will be consider as a probation period, and permenant contract will come after that. Pretty good, ay?

So what company is that? It's a company that sell ceramics and glassware, and they want me to handle all the wine glasses from a German company - Spiegelau. I will be help promoting them, marketing them and also hosting functions like wine tasting and wine dinner. you drink in your job, that sounds great, isn't it? ha. I think it will start in Dec, so it's good I still have time to rest.

I think I really need to catch up with some people, what a bad friend I am, damn me!
(watch out your mail box, I might drop you a one soon!)

[[audio: Hello Saferide - The Quiz]]