Tuesday, May 04, 2004
Love & Vertigo
I read the first few chapters of an auto-biographic novel last week, "Love & Vertigo" by Hsu-Ming Teo, apparently I just put the book down after I finished those chapters, go on my normal uni student life. I eat as usual, socialize with people as I should be... But my heart was mute, with a sense of grief. It's just a normal love and hate story in a family that trying to get through a mother lost, story isn't immensely dramatic, but my feelings was as vigorous as the first person. I'm not allow to tell the specific reason why, it's between me and myself, but Teo and I are connected strongly in certain level, and this is why her story is so influencial on my mind.
Today I had a guest lecture spoken by Teo for my political and creative writing, "Love and Vertigo wasn't hard to come out, and I enjoy writing it coz I discover myself, my family and how it connected with my home country and it's history. The purpose of this novel is not to make money, coz it couldn't make a lot as commercial fiction. I'm not a person who tend to put some profound philosophies or critical theories behind my story, I just want my audience experience the feeling of alienation and the emotions in my perspective."
Some of you may found it's cliche, but I love she said that.
Boy stuff, Gal stuff, Queer stuff
Had an interesting conversation with friends after my evening lecture of postmodernism. We watched some Buffy the vampire slayer in the class, and noticed that most of the guys are addicted to this show, they can name all the details about the show, characters, and so on, but none of the girls show their interest. I watch it at home sometimes, it's pretty kool but I'm not a big fan who chase the every single episode. My friend told me that, he found lots of gals in his another cultural tute, love watching shows like the secret life of us as well as sex and the city, which the boys think it's tedious and rather go out for a beer and chat about their own political philosophies or sport games. We tried to find out shows that both genders would be enjoyable to watch, which the result came up - The Simpsons, just like what I predicted.
When they asked my favourite TV show, I hesitated for awhile then I said "Queer as Folk". All the guys in the conversation group shown me a twisted face and some of them mocked me, "Fay, you just love watching man s*** d***." Well, it didn't embarrass me, and I was sorta calmed about those reactions, since I've seen so many guys act like that with their exaggerated sensitivity towards queer. Anyway, I said indifferently, "Guys, I think it's miserably shallow if you read it as a porno, it's just a STORY about how homosexual people deal with their lives. When you understand their intentions, it's beautiful to see them make love." Some guys was a bit convinced, but they still biting their lips and told me they just can't watch it; Others just insist it's a sick thing to watch. No offense, but their minds are contaminated by the negative homo stereotype and masculinity, which equals to homophobia.
[[audio: Things in Herd - Too Happy...]]
I read the first few chapters of an auto-biographic novel last week, "Love & Vertigo" by Hsu-Ming Teo, apparently I just put the book down after I finished those chapters, go on my normal uni student life. I eat as usual, socialize with people as I should be... But my heart was mute, with a sense of grief. It's just a normal love and hate story in a family that trying to get through a mother lost, story isn't immensely dramatic, but my feelings was as vigorous as the first person. I'm not allow to tell the specific reason why, it's between me and myself, but Teo and I are connected strongly in certain level, and this is why her story is so influencial on my mind.
Today I had a guest lecture spoken by Teo for my political and creative writing, "Love and Vertigo wasn't hard to come out, and I enjoy writing it coz I discover myself, my family and how it connected with my home country and it's history. The purpose of this novel is not to make money, coz it couldn't make a lot as commercial fiction. I'm not a person who tend to put some profound philosophies or critical theories behind my story, I just want my audience experience the feeling of alienation and the emotions in my perspective."
Some of you may found it's cliche, but I love she said that.
Boy stuff, Gal stuff, Queer stuff
Had an interesting conversation with friends after my evening lecture of postmodernism. We watched some Buffy the vampire slayer in the class, and noticed that most of the guys are addicted to this show, they can name all the details about the show, characters, and so on, but none of the girls show their interest. I watch it at home sometimes, it's pretty kool but I'm not a big fan who chase the every single episode. My friend told me that, he found lots of gals in his another cultural tute, love watching shows like the secret life of us as well as sex and the city, which the boys think it's tedious and rather go out for a beer and chat about their own political philosophies or sport games. We tried to find out shows that both genders would be enjoyable to watch, which the result came up - The Simpsons, just like what I predicted.
When they asked my favourite TV show, I hesitated for awhile then I said "Queer as Folk". All the guys in the conversation group shown me a twisted face and some of them mocked me, "Fay, you just love watching man s*** d***." Well, it didn't embarrass me, and I was sorta calmed about those reactions, since I've seen so many guys act like that with their exaggerated sensitivity towards queer. Anyway, I said indifferently, "Guys, I think it's miserably shallow if you read it as a porno, it's just a STORY about how homosexual people deal with their lives. When you understand their intentions, it's beautiful to see them make love." Some guys was a bit convinced, but they still biting their lips and told me they just can't watch it; Others just insist it's a sick thing to watch. No offense, but their minds are contaminated by the negative homo stereotype and masculinity, which equals to homophobia.
[[audio: Things in Herd - Too Happy...]]
